Hi!. so, it's me again.hehehe..
I've been kinda busy for quite awhile so I cant post an entry. But anyways,. nothing extra-ordinary happened naman during those days, sadyang tinamad lang ako at pinalipas ko ang monthly exam kaya nagpaka-busy ako 'kuno'.
In my past entries, nasabi ko nang naglalagi ako sa place ni Padre Pio di ba?.. Kapag wala akong magawa at may extra time, I made sure to pay a visit and pray and of course, my favorite part,.. lightning a candle. Ewan ko ba pero, iba kasi talaga ang feeling after staying in the place kahit pa saglit lang. Whenever I got the chance, I am attending the daily mass kahit pa ang hirap kasi umuuwi ako ng Pampanga. I am so bless with so much, pati ung tipong minsan parang, hindi ko na deserve. Realization starts the first time I visited St.Pio. I cant remember the exact month but I know that was 20th of the month. I prayed so hard and ask for guidance to pass the monthly exam. At first, I feel a little bit of.,errr di ko ma-explain. Para sa isang tulad ko na hindi ganon katibay ang Faith. Parang 'ah okay,.wala naman akong choice kundi magtiwala..kung hindi matupad, edi okay lang din. Atleast I tried and I prayed' ung mga ganyang thoughts. I was with karla that time. Sya kasi ung pinaka religious sa paningin ko, well, my bestfriends Julie and Eunice are religious person but they belong to different religion. They are Born Again Christian and I am Roman Catholic so is Karla.
I dont know why after my first visit, hindi ko na mapigilan. I always try to find time to pay visit nga everytime. Guilty as charged, I am one of those who will only pray kapag may kailangan, kapag may hihingin and I really feel sorry for myself because Im loving God the wrong way.
So the monthly exam came and done. I pray so hard, I even cry. But what amazed me is that, I passed the exam. I got perfect score to be exact! I feel so blessed that day!. hinding hinding hindi ko kakalimutan ang araw na yon. I payed a visit again after knowing my score in the exam. I lightened a candle and silently prayed to say thank you. I know that 'He' did not used magic or something for me to pass the exam, I did reviewed everything that is needed to pass the exam but I do believe that, without 'his' guidance, I will not pass the exam. I cant pass the exam because I lack of self-esteem. As in wala talaga akong tiwala lalo na dalawang beses kong ibinagsak ang exam ng magkasunod!.
It was a wish granted for many. But for me? It is an answered prayer. Its been months now since I made it a habit to visit St.Padre Pio of Pietrelcina Chapel. Im trying to pay a visit every week kahit, once a week lang. Im obliging myself because I am trying to built up a stronger Faith. Wait, let me re-phrase that, Im building a stronger Faith. For a long time, I am looking for 'that' thing I lack of,. and I think I already know what that 'thing' is. Faith.
Sa ngayon,. wala naman na akong mahihiling pa. For I feel so much blessed. Dati kaya hindi ako aware!. Kasi binabalewala ko lang ung mga blessings. It was like, its normal to have this and that and such kaya hindi talaga ako pala-thank you kay Lord. Minsan lang. So yun na nga, After I passed the exam, edi syempre natuwa naman daw ako.. Halos araw arawin ko na nga ang paglalagi sa St.Pio..hehehe.. karaniwang Visit lang naman ang lagi kong ginagawa since I dont have much time. Usually kasi nagpupunta ako before pumasok sa office since night shift ako. pag morning shift naman paglabas ng office ako pumupunta or after I came back from Pampanga. Hindi naman every visit my hinihingi ako,. I am paying a visit to say 'thank you'.. Promise!..
Great Power comes with Great Responsibility. Sabi ko naman, Stronger Faith comes with so much Realization. Realizations like, how lucky you are to be called a child of God, How great it is to be loved by God and How blessed you are to be surrounded by good people sent by God to help you, guide you and encourage you to be a better person. A better person who is Imperfect but strong, brave and Faithful. naks!. Ako pa naman 'to Lord no?..hehehe
Its a tradition in St.Pio to donate a rosary whenever devoties had their prayers answered or their wishes were granted. I already donated two brown rosaries. hehehehe.. but that doesnt meant I only had two answered prayers. I tell you,. I am so blessed to have everything I have now even I though I didnt ask for some of it, but still I am thankful that 'He' had bless me with 'so much'. Sabi ko nga di ba,. wala naman akong hinihingi lagi pag nagpupunta ako. Nagpapasalamat lang ako sa mga blessings. Pero recently, I ask for guidance para kay dad bucause he will under go CT-Scan., and as per mom, wala naman daw problem and okay naman lahat. Again, I am so amazed and thankful. Iba parin talaga pag buo ung Faith mo. Kapag naniniwala ka. Amen?.. Amen.
To end this entry, I want to share something..hehehehe..recently lang din,. I have this secret wish.. and this time its not for a friend or for my family. Its for myself. Hay...sana talaga... :) I'll share it kapag answered na. Samin na muna yun ni Lord at Padre Pio..hehehe I know, in his perfect time., matutupad yon.
Nikita.. :)