Sus-pended 101

Hi! Its been what? Two or three months? Err.. I cant remember.

I’ll try to post more for the next 30 days and I promised that because I have nothing else to do for those said days as I am officially suspended from work starting today—err yesterday, November 13. It has something to do with the biggest ‘joke’ (mistake) I had done last September 20. ( Kung naaalala nyo pa.)

Question. Do I feel upset? Well of course but come to think of it, its just fine. Just like what I often say to people who are close tomewhen they have problems, Shit happens.

So later that afternoon, Sir J chat me saying,’wait for me at the conference’ and so I did. There he explaine to me whats and whys. Sa totoo lang, sa tatlong minutong meeting naming,yes you read it right. 3 minutes. Nakatingin lang ako ng deretcho sa mata nya and keep answering him, ‘yes sir’ and ‘okay sir’. I didn’t even asked anything or say something. Para saan pa ba? Eh nagdesisyon na din naman sila at ang magagawa ko lang naman ay making sa gusto nila at sumunod. So after that, I went back inside and gathered my things for effective immediately that day ang suspension ko. I will be back after a month (December 13) For the training. Again. The suspension had many more other ‘sanga’ but I didn’t mind at all. Money doesn’t measure my intelligence.

I will be missing my squad (#spg). Before I got home tonight I spend the night with them on a movie date. Hayyy.. nakakamiss naman talaga the girls. Now I know what Sepanx really feels.

Am I stress? Yes. And I think I need someone to talk about this too or maybe, someone to be with and wont ask me what happen. I am not a ‘paawa’ type of person. If something upsetting happened to me and you feel that I am really into being stress, all you have to do is join me walk around somewhere or just talk to me about other things kasi, kapag ready nako pag-usapan ang totoong problema, ako pa mismo yung mag oopen dun. I am such a cry baby. Hanggang hindi ako nakaka get over sa nangyari, iiyakan ko iyon whenever I got to remember it and I am not comfortable that people see me cry specially if you weren’t that close to me or I feel that you will just feel pitty for me. One of the things that I hate the most is being pitty-ed. Basta ayoko lang because I know to myself that I am okay, and if not, soon I will be. And I believe that whatever happens, it happened for a reason. And I don’t want to blame anyone for that.

To Ate Gen, Ate Jel, Danica, Jessabelles and Arra, thankyou for tonight. I really had fun! I will miss our funny convos in the middle of our duty. I appreciate everything we do together guys. You really made me happy today and everyday of course. I’ll see you in a month. Aldub you.

And to my Loves, Eunice, Juju, Clang, Karla and Carlhie, and Pepe, keep safe guys. Don’t worry I’ll be fine. You take care of yourselves. I love you guys..

PS: I know you will read this dahil hindi naman kita mablock ditto. Viber me asap. Nagpromise ka dib a? Na pwede kong ibuhos sayo yung galit ko kasi alam kong kilala mo ko?

-The suspended Niki