Hello there!
It’s November 16 to day and I don’t have any plans to do-
yet. Mama woke me u early lately to look over the viand she’s cooking. I’m
betting bored and I need to do something to ease this thing ugh! Syempre hindi nako sanay ng ganito, pahinga
pahinga lang! Id only I can go to the mall every single day of this suspension
thingy, I would do so!
Yesterday I got there actually. I arrived around past 3pm
and got myself a venti cup of Caffe’ Mocha, its not my usual but I just want
to, for a change. I waited for David and he arrived around 4pm.
Yes, I am with Davis yesterday. We walked around the mall
and talked random things. I don’t know why, all of a sudden we’re so
comfortable with each other. What I mean is, date kasi parang ang awkward. Err,
I suddenly realized that I am right all along. That the two of us are better off
friends. We spent one hour at the videoke hub and sang random songs. And then
again, I find it weird thou hindi ko alam kung bakit eh. There is this one song
I made him sing, ‘All or Nothing’ by O-Town. While he sing, I was actually
singing with him without a mic. Basta sinasabayan ko lang sya kasi feeling ko
talaga ah, ayaw sakin ng Mic! Feeling ko sinasabotahe ako ng Mic sa mga
videokehan eh. Going back, while singing, I realized that, that song is kinda
fitting in in our past. I shrugged it of but It sends me into deep thoughts so
I looked for it again in the song book and had it played again and this time, I
am the one who sang it. Eh talagang swak samin! I mean sa past. Hindi ko lang
alam kung napansin ba nya, pero kasi saming dalawa ako yung mas observant sa
mga ganyang bagay noon or talagang masyado lang siguro akong conscious. We took
a couple of photos as I requested and told him I will post them on my IG
account. I even posted a video of us singing the song ‘when I was your man’ by
Bruno Mars, together. Haha! How Ironic! We got to do things together na hindi naming
ginawa dati when we are still together. And we enjoy doing things. Bat ganon?
I really, really never thought of this things will come.
What I mean is, we didn’t end in a smooth way thou we actually did and doing it
now slowly, the patching things up. We both are not good at verbal closure,
given na iyon but somehow, nagagawa naman naming sya through chat kahit pakonti
konti and I can say that we are good now. As I had said lately, we are more
comfortable with each other than before. We’re like old friends that didn’t saw
each other for a long time and so we are catching up things now. We even talked about some sort of personal
things like, having relationship with others thou we both don’t have one at the
moment. He mentioned the girl he love and told me things about how he puts
effort for her and such. Well, I have nothing felt against that kasi for me,
doing things that would make your special someone happy is normal. Yes? And I
find it weird whenever he will say, I do this and that for her that I didn’t do
for you before. I mean, so what? I am not into those things naman. Ako naman
kasi, kung hindi mo kayang gawin para sakin, okay lang. Lalo na kung hindi rin
naman makakaabala or kung hindi naman talaga kailangan na kailangan. Hay nako
sya, love sick sobra! We also talked about things na habang pinag-uusapan naming,
ang nasa isip ko talaga ay, ‘why are we talking things like this anyway?’ At oo,
pinag-uasapan talaga naming ang nakaraan naming! Like, seriously? Hahaha! But
honestly speaking, I didn’t feel any weird feeling habang pinag-uusapan namin
yon over our food. Parang normal lang na pag-usapan ung topic.
We really have this weird connection na siguro hindi na
talaga mawawala kahit ano pang gawin naming iwas. That, pag kailangan ko sya,
andyan sya. Though hindi naman nya kasi ako sinasabihan pag may mga dilemma sya
sa buhay dahil may iba naman syang kaibigan. May kaibigan naman din ako, I have
not that many but I have true friends, if you get what I mean. Pero kasi, I
trust him with such things. Like when I feel stress or what or I have something
in mind that I wanna talked about, alam kong masasabihan ko sya.
So, Engineer, thank you sa time! Pag-isipan mo yung plano
ah, ang tagal kasi ng 5 years na maghihintay ka sa wala tyaka, alam mo naman diba?
Nasabi ko na sayo kagabe. Haha!
PS: thank you for not wearing your pabango. It meant a lot kasi nga sa allergies to sa mga bagay na scented.
-Niki
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