Hi! Its been what? Two or three months? Err.. I cant remember.
I’ll try to post more for the next 30 days and I promised
that because I have nothing else to do for those said days as I am officially
suspended from work starting today—err yesterday, November 13. It has something
to do with the biggest ‘joke’ (mistake) I had done last September 20. ( Kung
naaalala nyo pa.)
Question. Do I feel upset? Well of course but come to think
of it, its just fine. Just like what I often say to people who are close
tomewhen they have problems, Shit happens.
So later that afternoon, Sir J chat me saying,’wait for me
at the conference’ and so I did. There he explaine to me whats and whys. Sa
totoo lang, sa tatlong minutong meeting naming,yes you read it right. 3
minutes. Nakatingin lang ako ng deretcho sa mata nya and keep answering him, ‘yes
sir’ and ‘okay sir’. I didn’t even asked anything or say something. Para saan
pa ba? Eh nagdesisyon na din naman sila at ang magagawa ko lang naman ay making
sa gusto nila at sumunod. So after that, I went back inside and gathered my
things for effective immediately that day ang suspension ko. I will be back
after a month (December 13) For the training. Again. The suspension had many
more other ‘sanga’ but I didn’t mind at all. Money doesn’t measure my
intelligence.
I will be missing my squad (#spg). Before I got home tonight
I spend the night with them on a movie date. Hayyy.. nakakamiss naman talaga
the girls. Now I know what Sepanx really feels.
Am I stress? Yes. And I think I need someone to talk about
this too or maybe, someone to be with and wont ask me what happen. I am not a ‘paawa’
type of person. If something upsetting happened to me and you feel that I am
really into being stress, all you have to do is join me walk around somewhere
or just talk to me about other things kasi, kapag ready nako pag-usapan ang
totoong problema, ako pa mismo yung mag oopen dun. I am such a cry baby. Hanggang
hindi ako nakaka get over sa nangyari, iiyakan ko iyon whenever I got to remember
it and I am not comfortable that people see me cry specially if you weren’t that
close to me or I feel that you will just feel pitty for me. One of the things
that I hate the most is being pitty-ed. Basta ayoko lang because I know to
myself that I am okay, and if not, soon I will be. And I believe that whatever
happens, it happened for a reason. And I don’t want to blame anyone for that.
To Ate Gen, Ate Jel, Danica, Jessabelles and Arra, thankyou
for tonight. I really had fun! I will miss our funny convos in the middle of
our duty. I appreciate everything we do together guys. You really made me happy
today and everyday of course. I’ll see you in a month. Aldub you.
And to my Loves, Eunice, Juju, Clang, Karla and Carlhie, and
Pepe, keep safe guys. Don’t worry I’ll be fine. You take care of yourselves. I
love you guys..
PS: I know you will read this dahil hindi naman kita mablock
ditto. Viber me asap. Nagpromise ka dib a? Na pwede kong ibuhos sayo yung galit
ko kasi alam kong kilala mo ko?
-The suspended Niki
