Rant 101

Its not that Im complaining. 'Lemme just let it out here since I cant really tell it all personally because they might be offended. I am really fond of my niece and I find here so addicting and irresistible but you know the feeling of, ugh.. I dont know how to say it! 

My new past time in the office is online shopping. Shems yes! ONLINE! ( shopee, Lazada, olx! ) Aside from bags and clothes, I also check the baby's stuffs and everything are just so adorable and I want to buy them all for my niece. Whenever my sister ask me to buy this and that for my niece, I really find it hard to say NO! I dont know why I cant say know to her when in fact we didnt grow up that close. Sabi ko nga di ba? Nung mga bubwit palang kami hanggang sa magkaisip, may kanya kanya kaming mundong apat. We all dont share the same interests in all things. Feeling ko nga sobrang opposite kaming apat. And me and my ate are just so ugh! Hindi talaga kami magkasundo. As in we always clash! And I dont know why. Basta ang alam ko, ayaw nya sakin at ako naman kasi yung taong, kung ayaw mo sakin, mas ayaw ko sayo. 

So here's the thing. Since she got married I notice that we ( kaming apat na magkakapatid) are kinda grow up some more. What I mean is, nabawasan ng very light ang pagiging immature namin. maybe because seeing ate getting married make us realize that we are not really getting any younger. (well, thats on my side, ewan ko lang sa kuya ko at sa youngest sister namin). One thing I dont like is that, I find ate so lazy to find a job. Among us four, she is the one who is more educated. Yun talaga ang pinaniniwalaan ko kahit Degree holder ako at College graduate naman sya. She was enrolled in a Catholic School ever since she started her Student journey. From Nursery-Fourth year High School. Kaming tatlo naman, ay proud product ng Elementary School at Public High School hanggang College. I am not complaining though. I love how the Public School molded me. Because I am proud that I am employed 4 days after my college graduation! haha!. Going back, as I was saying, ate dont have a job so as her husband. Her in-laws and our parents are supporting them and the needs of my niece, their daughter. ( oh I forgot, she's a two year course graduate.) 

It irritates me whenever my mom brag me and as for something like, can you buy this, buy that and that and that for my niece. I once answered her, "kung anolang yung gustong bilhin para kay baby yun lang ang bibilhin ko." Not that I dont want to help or buy nice things for my niece but, i think we are giving too much?? Kase parang nakakalimutan ng kapatid ko na responsibilidad nila yon at hindi namin. Even my Dad is so addicted to the point na hindi nya talaga matiis hindi bigyan. My younger sister even told me once that the money I gave dad for his medicines and fruits are used to buy milk and diaper for my niece! I was like, wow! Why the hell in this world this is happening??  Nakakainis lang kasi talaga minsan. Yung bakit kasi ganyan? hay ewan ko ba! Lately, while we are preparing for Bella's birthday, my tita's are teasing me to save money for my niece's coming birthday this October. first I was just shrugging off and laugh at them pero nung paulit ulit na, I told them, mag-aasawa nako! ( this mag-aasawa nako has something to do with my next entry later. :) ). Para lang matigil sila. Like, what the?? Bakit naman nila sakin sinasabi yon eh hamak na tita lang naman ako. Yeah I know, they are telling me that because I am the one who have a job. And they know that sa panahon na kailangan, pwede nila akong tawagan. Pero di ba? Ang wifi nga namin sa bahay may limit, ako pa kaya? Ayoko lang kasi na umasa sila. October is my birth month and I want to have something new this year. So If I am saving for October, its for my birthday. 

Really, I dont want you guys to think that I am complaining. I am so blessed with so much thats why I want to share it to my family. Kung kakayanin nga lang eh, gusto ko din ito ishare sa extended family ko. Hayyyyy... 

Lord, please enlighten me. :(

love, 

Niki..

June 26,2016 11:13pm