We are losing it..

Every day is a surprise. No one know what will happen tomorrow ‘till it come. People come and go. Some friends would stay and some would go away.

I am a person who’s not that easy to be with. If you want to be my friend, you have to deal with my worse version most of the time. But, if you do, I can promise you that I can stay with you as long as you want me to. It was like, if you accept me at my worst, you will surely have my best. Hindi ko mapili sa mga taong kinakaibigan ko, pero pinipili ko yung mga pinagkakatiwalaan ko.

Elementary. High Scholl. College.

My sets of close friends from Elementary to College are different. Ganito, iba ung close friends ko ng elementary, iba yung mga sa High School at iba din yung sa College. My Elementary Bffs  are my childhood friends, though we rarely see each other now, we make sure to keep in touch with each other. I really love these guys so much. My High School bffs are somehow different from my Elem Buddies but I don’t love them any less. And I miss getting along with them. It’s been a year since we last had our chitchat time. And my College Bffs. We are supposedly 5 in the Group but before our graduation, something came up and immaturity took over. There are just the three of us who remained ‘intact’. The ‘three of us’ are Me, Eunice and Julie. The three of us are good ‘till now. Or I guess??

Minsan ang friendship parang lovelife din pala. Nawawalan ng spark. *sigh

I don’t know when and how it started. We rarely talked. We don’t share secrets anymore. We even have our different sets of friends too. Their ‘brads’ and my ‘bessys’. We once talked (the three of us) and clear things out. It somehow worked naman, or so I thought. Pinipilit ko naman lumapit sa kanila eh, pinipilit kong ibalik yung date kahit alam kong iba na. May nawala na. May nasira na. There is this one time, while I was having a chitchat with one of them and the hangout chat pop-up suddenly. She immediately close it. Maybe she’s afraid I might see what’s in there, but the thing is, I saw the chat box already and it was named by the first letter of their names. Hindi ko alam kung gets nyo ba ko pero kasi, iba ung feeling. But then again, I just shrugged all the thoughts away.

What saddens me is the feeling of; we are (the three of us) close to losing it. What I mean is, the friendship we had. We are losing it. Or we already did? Hay… nothing last forever if we don’t want those things to last forever.

-Niki