Secret Dream..

Didnt I mention in this blog that I had this secret dream to be a writer? Iilan lang talaga ang nakaka-alam don kasi nga, secret! I had been writing stories since I was in grade six though I stopped when I enter high school. Later on college I decided to write again, and this time, hindi na sa notebook o grade 4 paper, sa wattpad na! hahaha!! I so love reading wattpad stories that's why I decided to gave writing a try. As of now, I already had 3 completed stories, 2 on-hold and 1 that is soon to be completed.

My current stories is about two people whom started because of the unintentional eavesdropping of the main character.I had been writing it for more than half a year now and I am currently writing its 38th chapter at malapit na syang matapos! Yehey!! Excited ako pero at the same time, it saddened me too for I will be bidding goodbye to the #FatedNicNiks so soon. :) Napaka habang delay na nga ng ending nila dahil kakaisip ko ng pwedeng twist na ipasok, But the main character are just too madly, deeply and crazy inlove with each other so, imagine the struggle habang pinipilut kong magalitr si Girl kay Boy kasi sobrang hirap! Napaka bait naman kasi ni Boy at sobrang love nya si Girl. And ending,walang magandang kinapupuntahan ang mga LQ nila dahil sila yung tipo na, away ngayon, bati na bukas. Ganon! Hindi naman din kasi ako ganon kagaling magsulat so, sinisimplehan ko lang din naman ang mga banat. Huhu... I will surely miss Mr. NDM and Mrs. NDM and of course, Willow a.k.a Baby Nicnik. Yesterday, I started to write the 37th chapter and it happened that this chapter is about their wedding. Sa sobrang Inlove ng mga character, masyado yatang napahaba ang wedding vows na nagawa ko. Specially the Boy's wedding vow na kaninang madaling araw ko lang natapos. Their vows are just so much to feel and I am happy for them..yiiiiih!

As much as I want to make this entry a little longer, I dont really feel good and I all I want to do is lay down to my bed and rest.

Ps: The title of the story I am talking about is Fated na may heart gawa sa less than 3. Ayan! Hanapin kung mahahanap! hahaha!<3 ako="" and="" characters.="" crush="" font="" for="" hahhaahha="" i="" imagine="" lead="" lol="" mag="" may="" my="" name="" paano="" s="" the="" used="">

Kung maka hahaha! naman ako akala mo walang problema! Eh, magtutuos na kami ni Sir bukas at wala akong kalaban laban. :( 

Dear Bes, ipag-pray mo naman na hindi ako maiyaki kasi isa sa pinaka ayaw ko ay ang napapagalitan. :(

-Niki

To whom it may concern..

And so it happened.Until now, I cant still process the things right though I am already aware on what will be the consequences of what I did. Bembang talaga ako kay Sir! 

I am really upset but I cant do anything rather than wait for tomorrow. :( . And since I am feeling stress and upset since the minute it happened and I am not eating right, sleeping right and thinking right, I got colds now.

One of the things that I hate the most is having colds because I really feel uneasy somehow. Last night I slept past 9 pm but then woke up around 1 am and been wide awake 'till 5 am! Imagine that? Nakakaloka!! Ang sakit na sa ulo bes! Hindi ako pinatahimik ng ubo ko magdamag. :(

Anyways,last night while reading a certain story on my wattpad library, I receive a text message from a random number. Random kasi hindi naman sya naka-save sa phonebook ko. Hehehe. :) I receive the text message around 12:30 midnight but I had read it I think 4-5 am in the morning because I am using my iPad and my cellphone is charging under my bed. So, the text message I receive has something to do with my last blog entry ( the one that causes my stress now ). I want to post the exact text message I receive from this random person but I think that is necessary kaya wag nalang. 

To you, who texted me last 12 midnight. I gladly appreciate what you had said and thank you. You may know me or you may not but I will be appreciating it more kung magpapakilala ka kasi, hindi kita kayang hulaan!! hahaha! Pero parang kilala mo ko kasi kung sabihin mo naman na kunyari hindi ko alam kung sino ka eh, ganun ganun nalang!! enebe?? FYI, I accidentally posted my personal number on one of my SNS account publicly. (Knowing that all the links of my SNS accounts are on the about me of my google account.) Hindi ka nag-iisa na nagte-text saakin na hindi ko kilala. As much as I want too, I cant change my personal number kasi yun yung nakalagay sa mga importanteng papeles ko! Sa office, so Ids at sa lahat lahat na. So ayun nga, kung ano man ang intensyon mo, to cheer me up yan, na-appreciate ko. Salamat. Salamat. Salamat. And uy salamat, kahit pa-paano pala ay may napapadaansa blog ko. :) 

Sa sobrang random ng entry na to, pati ako hindi natutuwa. Pero kasi... Pero kasi...

Come on guys, I need a break and this is the only thing I know para mailabas lahat to!

PS: to my random texter, hey! nagdadasal ako. Hindi ko nakakalimutan yon. Sadyang... Lamona!

-Niki

major mistake

September 20, 2016.. I really dont know what to feel after what happened. After what I did. I just had the major mistake in this lifetime. Na-gamit ko ung locked na token Bessy!!!! ang laking lost at ang laki ko ding shunga!!

I curse countless of times the whole duty. I am so stress (sa totoo lang, Depress) and I really feel stupid and I wanna cry! Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi, kasalanan ko talaga yon at napaka simpleng bagay lang ang kailangan gawin para maiwasan yon pero hindi ko ginawa. :( 

I dont know what to think first. Bukod sa bembang ako kay sir J, mapapagalitan pa ko sa leader namin pagbalik nya after ng kanyang leave. At paano ko sasabihin kay mama?.. I feel so disappointed on myself. Im such a failure.. I know Im so stupid. :(

ugh!!!.. I ... I am just so sad right at the moment and all I want now is a good cry. At times like this, I miss having someone to comfort me (pwera pa sa mga friends ko ). I am reffering to that someone who will say 'its okay, im here' and such. Oh well, .

wherefore art thou my future someone??

--NIKI :(