My very own 'the one that got away'..

Maybe.,after you had read the title of this entry,.you already have an idea on who's my 'the one that got away'.. that is,.if you are reading my blog entries regularly or you had this little free time to scan some of my entries, but here it goes anyway.

After 4 relationship.,I can say that, I already met this one whom I can say 'the one that got away'. This someone and I had shared so much on the past years when we are in-a-relationship status. So much ..so much to the point that,. almost everything and anything reminds me about 'how' and 'what' we are before we broke up..before everything had changed,.before everything between us fall apart,.before he realized that., hindi na nya ko mahal.. :( ang hirap englishin..tagalog nalang.. :(

So,.ano o sino nga ba si 'The One That Got Away?'.. Sabi ni google..ito daw ung taong makikilala mo by fate..you will somehow share the same interest in somethings,.you have something in common.,mga ganun.. There are two kinds: one is,.you came to the point where you made it to the point of having a relationship and the second one is where you choose to stay as friends. (uyy saan ka dyan?..hahaha ako dun sa 1! hahaha ). Ang hirap i-explain..pero ito ung stage na,.ramdam nyong may something.,masaya kayo sa isat-isa,.minsan nga iisipin mo na sya na ung 'the one' pero dadating ung point na masasabi mo din.,hindi pa pala..but onetheless., this someone will forever have a special part or place in your life,.ung tipong gusto mong kalimutan pero parang ayaw mo din?kasi some how,.may napunan sya sa pagkatao mo na hindi naibigay ng iba. yown!.

In my case.,yes I already met this someone., must be fate right?..he came in the right time.,the time when I feel so damn broken and wasted. He didnt just made me happy,.he made me live again.,he made me see that life has so much to offer and that I have so much to be thankful for.. I love how he made me feel special every time, how he care and how kind he is. As in,.hands down.Sobrang bait talaga. Life isnt a bed of roses everyday for the both of us but he always made sure that at the end of the day,. the last text message i will receive from him is 'I Love You So Much' *insert our endearment on after the word much*... Really,. I am looking forward on growing old with this someone but I guess,.just like what i had said on my other entry,. we are not meant to be. we are not born for each other. We are not bound to share the same 'happy-ever-after'.

If 'you' ever have the time to read this entry,. I want you to know that,. you will always have a special place in my life. That after the countless rejections from you, after our painful goodbyes (na hanggang ngayon paulit ulit parin), after upbraiding each other non-stop pag walang masisi sa mga nangyare,. still,. I want to keep you..,no not you literally but your memories,.our memories together. I know,.there came a point where i said 'nagsisisi ako na minahal kita'., not just once nor twice.,and I know I hurt you by that so.,forgive me?..I dont really mean it.,sometimes I just dont know how to control the words I am saying specially when im in the peak of my emotions., pero di ba., sabi mo din 'kung alam ko lang na masasaktan ka sakin sana hindi nalang?' ..masakit din kaya yon!. mag-sorry ka!..hahaha de joke lang!..lagi mo naman din kasing sinasabi na .,hindi ka nagsisisi na minahal mo ko., ahehe,,(*wink).. Whenever I asked you 'bakit mo ko minahal?' you will just smile and say 'masarap ka kasing mahalin at alagaan..', 'kahit ipagtabuyan mo ko mas lalo pa kitang mamahalin'.. those were the lines that hit my heart hard and made me fall inlove more..hays..but anyway. We're not meant to grow old together..though I wanna dedicate this song to you..as I listen to this song lately,.a certain 'picture' from the past cross on my mind.. ung yakap kita sa harap ng guard house habang nakaupo ako dun sa lagi kong inuupuan pag break time?..ung kung saan nakalagay ung log book ni Mang Emy.,ung first time mong mag uniform nung college ka tas pinuntahan mo ko sa school?..naalala mo?..un ung unang beses na niyakap kita.. :) so ito na..sana alam mo 'tong song..

Another day passes by, i'm dreamin' of you,

And though I know it might be just a dream, dreams come true,

Somewhere, somehow i'll find you even though it takes all of

My life{all of my life}

And when I finally do{and when I finally do}

I know inside my heart{ I know inside my heart}

That there could be no doubt, I knew it from the start

{you are the one}you are the one

That i've been searching for my whole life through,

{you are the one}you are the one that i've been looking for

And now that I have found you,

{duet}i'll never let you go, i'll hold you in my arms

You are the one

Another night spent alone

I'm lying in the dark{lying in the dark}

I don't know your name

But I know your voice sings to my heart{voice sings to my heart}

A sweet melody, a symphony of love

I know that come one day{i know that come one day}

A time for you and me{a time for you and me}

To finally be together, cause I know we're meant to be

{you are the one}you are the one

That i've been searching for my whole life through,

{you are the one}you are the one that i've been looking for

And now that I have found you,

{duet}i'll never let you go, i'll hold you in my arms

Forever's a meaningless word

Even though you're here with me

Here by my side, here in my heart....

{duet} i'll never let you go i'll hold you in my arms

{you are the one} you are the one that i've been searching for my whole life through

{you are the one}that i've been looking for and now that I have found you

{duet} i'll never let you go, i'll hold you in my arms

{you are the one}you are the one

That i've been searching for my whole life through,

{you are the one}you are the one that i've been looking for

And now that I have found you,

{duet}i'll never let you go, i'll hold you in my arms

Cause you are the one, you are the one

PS: 'you are the one' kase.. you're my 'the one that got away'

PPSS: David knows about my blog but Im not sure if he finds time to read.. :)

Niki.. :)

after four heartbreaks..

Its a typical thursday night. So many thoughts are crossing my mind lately and I cant understand why. What ifs, So whats, If ever, and so much more but what really bothers me is the thought of 'settling down' in the near future. How's that? Kinda weird for me because I'm only 22. Im supposed to enjoy my life and my starting career but I wonder why these thoughts are bothering me.

Who wouldn't want to settle down with someone who loves you? Care for you, respect you, and only see his future with you too?

From the first time I fell in-love, that was 2007? I think. puppy love as they say. Hindi naman kami tumagal non pero syempre umiyak ako kahit papano. I experienced my very first heartbreak from Aj. Our relationship lasted for 3 months I think, he broke up with me to have a second chance with his first love named Kathlyn. (Pero,ayun hindi din sila nag work!.tsk! tsk!..ano ka ngayon? chos!). My second heartbreak was just so.....funny?..hehehe..well I didn't cry that hard like I did when Aj and i broke up but,.maybe me and my ex named Bret just happened to be more likely on being friends than more than friends?...(di talaga ako sigurado pero,.magulo talaga..) he broke up with me when his mom offered him a new computer set in exchanged on breaking up with me. It happened that he love playing computer games than me so he did broke up with me.(huhuhu..why so rude?..charing!). The next heartbreak i had after Bret hit me so hard!. As in!. I cried a river, begged for a second chance, risk my life (oppps?..lalim?..d naman ganun ka literal pero ung stage na susugatan ko ung sarili ko..you know,.those kind of stuff..uso kasi un nun sa school pag broken hearted kaya,.nakikiuso ako..hehe)., i'll not mention a name na lang but this one had something to do with how David and I met. (ayiih! *insert sarcastic smirk here). I dont know why but I really fell inlove so hard with this one. As in!. sa kanya ako natuto ng PDA. HHWW, hug everywhere, anywhere, everytime!. (hus!.bata pa ko non wag nyo kong husgahan!.). Pero hindi naman kami masyadong nagtagal. On and Off pa nga kami nun eh,.pero syempre 'hit hard' nga eh.. whenever this someone comes back to me after breaking my heart,.I always give in. .mejo close to one year yata pero hindi naman un steady,ay naging iba pa nga sya. But nonetheless,. this one made me happy and feel love even though we didn't work that well. The best thing happened in this heartbreak is that, I got to know David.We become friends,.close friends. And eventually, fell in-love after that 'someone' broke my heart big time.! Then here comes David. The one who made my world stop when we're together. The one who made me cry in so much love and happiness, give everything and anything just to see me smile. The only person who loves me true (except sa parents at family ko at friends ko.), accept all my flaws, cry with me when im sad, comfort me when needed, laugh with me..fall inlove with me every single day of our relationship. And the best thing that David made me feel is that., He made me his world..his everything. I had mention David countless of times on my past entries. I even share some parts of our loves story specially the 'break up' part. So when you read this you probably know what happened between me and David,.why we didnt last.(kaya,.ladies and getlemen,.wag na natin ulitin ah?move on na tayo pwede?) (PS: Im david's first kiss, first dance, first hug pero d ako sure sa hug..hahaha..wala nasabi ko lang..) (I believe in the saying,. maging kayo man ngayon,.oh edi kayo na,.nauna parin ako!.haha..charooot!)

Edi ayon na nga., after four heartbreaks,. here I am,.single and not yet ready to fall inlove again. :) lamnyoyan!.. anyways,.before I started the 'story telling part' I am talking about the thoughts of 'settling down',.siguro youre thinking now,.'anong connect?'.. ganito nga kasi yon., Since the thoughts of settling down thingy keeps on bothering me this past few days,. naiisip ko tuloy,. sino nga kaya ung binigay na other half ko ni Lordie?..have I met him before?..does our path already cross?..I was wondering if... oh well, nevermind. And one more thing..hihihi..among my four past love,. there is 1 person who stands out that I once dreamed of myself walking down the aisle with him, exchanging I dos with him, delivering a heartfelt vow for him in our wedding day, wiping my tears of joy while listening to his vow, exchanging of rings, building dreams together, holding each others hand as we walk toward our happy-ever-after. *deep sigh* I only see all of these with David. :'(

But I know,. 'all of these'  are not bound to happened for me with David. Because we're not meant to be. He's not the one that the Lord gave me to spend the rest of my life with. He would never be the one who will wait for me in the altar as I walk down the aisle. He's not the one who will give me the most heart melting vow. As much as I want too,. he will never be the one who will hold my hand and walk toward our Happy-ever-after and again,.its because David and I are not meant for each other. :(

the sad story teller,

Niki :'(

16th of the month

Im not really sure if Im in the mood to post an entry to this blog tonight but.,here, Im trying to think of something that I can share.. .. ..

It's my rest day tomorrow and Im going straight home to Pampanga after my duty though I dont really feel like going home.. :( .. ayan nanaman po tayo.. Its January 15 today and tomorrow is january 16.. 16!... 6th monthsary ng ALDUB my god!..excited ako..!.charing!..hehehehe..

I dont know why Im still affected. Why every 16th of the month I feel so damn wasted.. (OA ko ah!).. Basta laging sad, laging nakakaantok at laging nakakainis kapag 16th of the month.!.. January 16, 2016.. 78th month..errr..nevermind..

Sorry..I really cant write anything na maayos..argh!.. I'll try to think of something nice to share later.. :)


the Grummpyyyy,

Niki :/

eto pa!. Love Story version. 1.2

David is the kind of person you can share your secrets with. (tama ba?). As in bow head talaga ako kung ugali lang talaga ang pag uusapan. Ang bait lang kasi nya. Everything and anything.,basta kaya nya gagawin at ibibigay nya sakin man yan o sa kaibigan. Specially when he graduated from her two year course in college. He spoils me with everything and anything I want.,from material things, effort, and my favorite, his time. I couldnt ask for more. Sometimes, I will just find myself asking myself, ano bang ginawa kong maganda at binigay ni Lord sakin ang isang to?.. Whenever we had the chance to be together the whole day or basta kapag nagkita kami tapos kakain tapos kwentuhan,. he always ask me before we sleep at night the same question.. "happy ka ba?" ..and whenever he ask me this question,.again, I'll just find myself smiling and wondering,. what would my life be without David?.. Naiisip ko tuloy ngayon,. Did I made David happy too nung mga panahon na,. wala syang ginusto at ginawa kundi pasayahin ako?.. I wish I could turn back time so I can ask him too if im making him happy too..

Current mood: sad! :(

I dont know where it started.. Started things to fall apart., suddenly, all the sweet nothing turns into throwing of 'unecessary' words..all the 'i love yous' turn into 'hatreds' .. wonderful things turns into something we never think that will happen. Guilty as charge, I toke him for granted., everytime I feel neglected,. I would tell him 'lets just end this' ..at first he would say no,.but later on,.he gave in., Im selfish. But can you blame me?. Iniisip ko kasi,hindi naman nya kaya na mawala ako. Na babalik din sya.. (eh hindi na nga bumalik?.letche!) 

*deep sigh* David fell inlove.... to someone else. It hurts but,. I cant do anything about that. I mean,. basta ayoko ng sumali pa.  Pero... oo na!. I tried to win him back., I tried to beg him even more!. Un ung sinabi ko ung nga lines na 'ako nalang ulit', 'please ako nalang'.. oh my godnessgracious!. After he left me,. I tried to save myself from the heartache.. and I must say, I succeeded pero putik na yan!. Andun nako eh.,andun na..tapos nagparamdam ulit!..kaya ayun., all the walls i built around me broke down..and then again, ladies and gentlemen... I cried, I beg, I got hurt, got rejected all over again with the same reason. *sigh*.. (ang tanga no?)

The good thing is,. I know how to handle my feelings, emotions rather on the second time it happened. I cried but not as hard as I did the first time. I beg but not that super makaawa, got hurt but not that 'intense' , yes got rejected for the nth time but I didnt give a damn..hahaha!.kebs!.

Anyways,. Im trying my best to stop myself, Stop myself to reach out for David.. (sana magawa ko kahit isang bwan lang1.tapos dalawang bwan..tapos tatatluhin ko na..tas hanggang 1 year na,,please *cross fingers*) 

Beibi., i will not forget the day you catch me after my heart got broken because of E.R.. and I will never regret the day I said yes to you. (kahit yun ung iniisip mo,na nag sisisi ako na sinagot kita..). Maybe someday you would find thid blog and read all my entries and I hope, when that day comes, you'll reach out again for me and ask me to be friends with you. Who knows?..I'll accept to offer. :)

listening to: Got to believe

feeling:  weary.. :(

want: to party on twitter (pero walang signal sa officec..)

thinking: anong napapanaginipan ni David ngayon kung tulog na sya. at anong ginagawa nya kung gising pa sya.

David's ex-girlfriend ,

Beibi :)

eto na!. Love Story version. 1.1

Im thorn between posting an entry here and publishing a new chapter on my wattpad. :(

lately, I feel super again,. I wanna keep going and dont wanna stop talking and talking even though there's no one to talk to.,but now,.i just wanna stay quiet and just..you know..think of some things..errr,.okay..here's the thing..

Kanina while I'm on the bus,.(traveling from Pampanga to Manila) I felt the urge to chat David. Ung feeling na parang kailangan ko syang i-chat kasi parang feeling ko hinihintay nyang gawin ko yon?.so while i was thinking if I will send him a message thru chat, I stared at my cellphone,then after 20 minutes or so of thinking I decided to..(oh kalma!).. I decided to just go offline and keep my cellphone instead. I've gone this far and I dont wanna break my promise to myself this early! Hindi pa nga naka-isang bwan ang 2016 eh!.Siguro naman kung may kailangan sya sakin magsasabi naman sya,.kung kailangan nya ng karamay sa katangahan nya, kung kailangan nya ng companion sa mall para mag unwind or kung gusto nyang makipagbalikan sakin (joke!) hehehehe..magre-reach out naman siguro sya. But kidding aside,. I really miss David right now.Kahit ayaw ko syang ma-miss. Kahit naman nasasaktan lang ako nun alam ko naman na hindi nya sinasadya yon or,.basta..kasi ano..uhm..basta nga kasi alam ko!.

current thought: naiisip kaya ako ni David ngayon?

feeling: tinatamad. ang daming dapat unahin at gawin peo ano? eto.,blog pa more? >.<

listening to: I Do by 98 degrees. oh hindi ko sinadya to ah..ito lang talaga ang natiempo na tugtug habang tina-type ko ito.. (is this a sign?first dance namin ni david to nung prom namin,)

want: i wanna go home and cuddle my niece YukiMeng.. :( 

needing: TLC.. (seriously,.i need it.,more attention from someone who loves me..parents, siblings,.friends perhaps?)

I wanna share something but I dont know how to start.. :( 9:42pm..1/11/2016.. arg!..i want to talk to David so bad!..i wanna tell him i love him but how?..its so...frustarating? I guess..anubanaman yan!. hindi ko din maintindihan ung sarili ko!. Paano ba sabihin sa isang tao na mahal mo sya kahit nababaliw sya sa iba?.. :(

July 16, 2009..that's when I said 'yes' to David..I can still remember that's thursday night because the next day, friday, he went to our school to see me ( i was in 4th year high school then and he's in first year college). The moment i saw him, I know, I made the right decision to give it a try on him. On that day i hugged him.,but I didnt say anything special.,I just ...hug him. nagtaka nga sya eh.,kasi hindi ko naman ginagawa yun date.,hindi nya sinabi sakin pero ramdam ko talaga na nagtataka sya. Im not the showy type. Im more on saying.,ung sinasabi ko kung ano ung nararamdaman ko.,I dont know why but,.Im shy to show it by actions. Alam naman nya siguro yon. On our first month, he gave me a teddy bear and we named it 'Vien'., Hindi naman si Vien ang unang teddy bear na nareceive ko from a special someone but Vien is special to me.,until now. Halos kasi ibinalik ko lahat ng binigay nyang gift sakin eh,well, binalik ko din naman si Vien pero binalik nya din sakin. kinuha ko na din kasi baka itapon nya.(though alam kong hindi nya magagawa yon.) Vien is special because it symbolizes so many things for me. Naaalala ko pa nga, sabi ni David nung binigay nya si Vien, kapag daw namimiss ko sya, hug ko lang si Vien kasi parang sya na din yon. Vien would always be the best gift that David had gave me on our entire relationship because.(ang hirap i explaine ah!.) basta!.. In my High School graduation David gave me another teddy bear and we named it 'Thea'., Thea is a pink bear wearing a neon green shirt with a 'i love you baby' print on it. Thea's a bit smaller than Vien but nonetheless.,Thea is special to me too just like Vien. And came July 16, 2010,.David gave me a ring., a couple ring to be more specific,.hehehehe..im so happy that day.,(promise!.hindi mo mabibili ang tuwa ng puso ko nun!) its silver and I know, he saved a lot to just to be able to buy a ring for us. The sad part is, David lost his ring.,anyways, months after our break up, I return my ring to him.,ewan lang kung nasa kanya pa.

And so our first two years are full of love, laughters and of course..DRAMA.,life is not always a bed of roses as they say pero nasurvive naman.. :) thats a good thing right?

Masyado ng mahaba..feel ko talaga ikwento lahat ngayon..see my next entry..hehehe

in the mood to make kwento,

Niki :)

My Wedding March be like.. :)

While writing this entry, i am listening to one of my playlist in spotify.,tambay ako sa playlist na to mula kaninang start ng duty ko dahil sobrang na LSS ako sa kantang 'to.,.8 songs na isa lang ang title..yan ang laman ng playlist ko.. :) old habit die hard. Ako lang ba? o,na-experience nyo din ung pakiramdam na, isang kanta lang ang pinakikinggan pero hindi nakakasawa?..

So ito na nga., sobrang na-LSS nga kasi ako sa kantang 'to at feeling ko talaga.,perfect to!.Perfect to para sa wedding ko!. hahahahah! yay!. as in bawat lyrics perfect. I love listening to love songs and as a matter of fact, I have a long list of love songs na gusto kong gamitin sa wedding ko someday. (kung ikakasal ako!) ewan ko ba pero eto ung list ko:

1. On this Day by David Pomerance

2. I Do by 98 Degrees

3. God Gave me you by Bryan White

4. Because of you by Keith Martin

5. Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now by Julie Ann ft Elmo

6. Best in Me by Blue

7. It's True by Backstreet Boys

8. Forevermore by Side A

9. True by Ryan Cabrera

10. Angel's Brought me here by Guy Sebastian

11. For All of My life by MYMP

12. Here in my Heart by Plus One

13. Ngiti by Ronnie Liang

at ang pinaka latest nga sa listahan at sa palagay ko,ang pinaka pinaka pinaka gusto ko..

14. Colour Everywhere bu Christian Bautista

Kasi..ang ganda ng message ng kanta na 'to promise., I can imagine myself walking down the aisle, my parents are on my side, holding a boquet of pink tulips, wearing my wedding dress and a long veil, .... hanggang dun muna. Tyaka na ung 'smiling sweetly to my happy-ever-after as he waits for my at the altar' ..

Here's my favorite part of this song anyway:

my life is so predictale

never any mystery

but ever since you shined the light

all of that was history

now i have a hand to hold

and a reason to believe

there's someone in my worth living for

i was hanging around just wishing on a star

to put the happines back in my heart and...

you, you put the blue back in the sky

you put the rainbow in my eyes

a silver lining in my prayers

and now there's colour everywhere...

*dreamy sigh* wherefore art thou my husband to be? 

sharing a thought about my future wedding,

Dreaming Niki.. :)

sUpEr MoOd eh..

hoooooray!. after two days, sinipag din akong magsulat. Sa totoo lang ang dami dami daming pumapasok sa isip ko na ishare dito sa blog kaya lang hindi kinakaya ng neurons ko kaya kung anu anu nalang din ang nai-e-entry ko.. :( For the past two days pati kanina.. I feel super., laughing, talking, eating..lahat na yata ng salitang 'ing' ang ending ..I dont know why Im like that pero ine-enjoy ko lang kasi masaya naman sya at yon naman kasi ang gusto kong maging takbo ng buhay ko sa 2016..ung masaya lang.

Last night,(kung last night pa nga yun),,.i slept 1:45am., like what i'd said,. I feel super as in..super parang walang space para sa negative vibes.,i woke up I think that was past 9:50 in the morning basta close to 10 am na..baka nga mag 11 na din non eh..as usual, I woke up with a light feeling., I browse my SNS and have a little chitchat with my ate on messenger then i bought food and eat..after that,.humiga na ulit ako at nanood nalang ng tv while again browsing on my SNS..tapos yun nanood ng kalyeserye.,then after,.borlog na 'ko. Before i slept,.i feel so energetic. Pero pag gising ko,. Im kinda err..not in the mood?..ewan ko lang ah,.ang bilis kasi magpalit ng mood ko ngayon pero oaky lang,.naha-handle ko naman sya tapos madalas pa happy mode..kaya carry.

That's my January 4, 2016 morning goes. see my next entry, baka yun my kwenta an.. :)

Signing in,

The Chirpy Niki :D

New Year's Eve and New Years' Day!. 31/01

And so we welcome 2016  few hours ago?..how was your first hour of 2016?..ako?..namimiss na kita 2015!.. (insert crying emoji here) chos!..hehe..its my first time to spend new year's eve and new year's first day away from my humble home in Pampanga. Its was the saddes New Year but anyway,. its God's will so there's no reason to be sad..lumipas na din naman eh., I spent new year in our little apartment here in Bagumbayan Quezon City (hooooray for my first New Year in NCR!) i was with my bestfriend and her family. They had decided to celebrate new year's eve here in Manila because my bestie cannot make it home for new year (she's from pampanga too.). 

After checking out from work yesterday, December 31, 2015, we went home in our apartment to eat and rest. Then, I think that was past 7pm when i decided to freshen up and have a little time with Lordie at St. Pio Chapel. I wore my favorite black maxi dress and pair of comfys, wore my red matte lipstick then gorabels na!. hehehe .. i didnt had the chance to catch the last mass for new year's eve because its too early (early kase, in Pampanga mass for New Year's Eve normally starts at 8:30 or 9pm and will last till 10-10:30 pm) so,i just stayed near the door of the chapel and prayed (patapos na kasi ung mass non,,) then after the blessings I went to the candle lightning station. (in St.Pio there is a corner there where you can light candles for free.,you can light candles there as many as you want tapos donate ka nalang ng coins or kung magkano ung gusto mong ihulog..) I lightened 5 candles,.i usually light 4 candles everytime i got the chance to visit there.,and as usual, I prayed and say thank you for everything that the Lord had gave me and my family..and ask for guidance for the coming year.,i didnt ask for anything but guidance. (ow.,I prayed for my favorite couple pala..A&M.. sana may forever sila!) i took some photos around the vicinity before i go back to the apartment. It was my first time to do that. i mean, ung mag punta sa simbahan ng mag-isa.,yearly kasi my whole family (except kay daddy at tito boy) attends Christmas and new year;s eve mass. Tradisyon na yon. After going to church, me, Eunice and her siblings and tita vicky (their mom) went to Eastwood City but we didnt stay there long because its raining so we decided to go home instead of staying. I spend the remaining hours of 2015 watching TV and Browsing my social media accounts (facebook,twitter and instagram to be specific..) while waiting for the #kapusocountdownto2016 (adun si Alden eh!..hahahaha).. I stayed in one corner while watching tv and at the same time having a chat time with my sisters and cousins. And. oh well.. I also had a little chitchat with David via messenger..

And so last night before 2015 end.. I... . i.... .i once again offered my heart to David. And as expected,. my heart is rejected. :( that was so sad but anyway, i just tried my luck. I even told him that,. that would be the last time na gagawin ko yon.

So that's how i spent my New Year's Eve.. I slept 2am in the morning and woke up 7:30.. I toke a bath, get dressed and went to work..while walking, thoughts of David keeps on flashing back but i ignored them all. David belongs in my past and I dont have any intention to bring even a single memory of 'us' in my present and future. Goodbye love!. hehe (Funny-ndigan ah!)

And since its new years' day,.I decided to spoil myself :) 1 piece chicken spicy, 1 rice, extra gravy, soup and coke for breakfast!. yay! bida ang saya.. keaga-agang date namin ni Jollibee :) nag take out lang ako then kumain ako sa pantry sa office.. while munching my ow so yummy breaky., nasabi ko sa sarili ko.. 'wala talagang katulad si jabiiiiii' di ko alam ah..pero whenever i got to eat at jabiiiii i feel so light after...parang,.wala sarap sa feeling.,kaya nga naniniwala ako eh..kay Dr. Jollibee..hahahaha..sabi ni mamami nung bata pa daw kami ng mga kapatid ko,.si dr. Jollibee lang ang katapat ng lagnat namin.. :)

Im looking forward to a better, happier, exciting and a blessed 2016 :) 

new years' resolution: be more optimistic :) 

Happy January 1st Everyone!..

Happy New Year!

Happy life ahead!

happily updating my very first entry this year, 

Happy Niki :)