Home Alone thoughts..

Its friday-payday but here i am in the middle of darkness..chos!. mag-isa ako ngayon sa apartment dahil day-off nilang lahat!.i was a little bit confused lately,.i spend my whole day reading/stalking 'someone'..dapat ba pag gumawa ka ng blog,mostly english?. sorry mejo shunga ako dito! but anyway,.just wanna tell you guys that i suck in english,so pretty please?..bear with my grammar kung mapaenglish man ako..hehe..so,yun na nga..habang naghihintay ako ng DC,Connect at chenachena kanina,nagbabasa ako ng blog..do you know ate dub?..ung ate ni yaya dub?..hehe..i really like her,.parang,ang funny ng personality nya.(funny talaga?! 😆 hehe..) i mean,parang ang saya nyang kausap or kasama..parang ma-sense of humor.


At first, kung ano lang ung mapindot ko na entry nya, un na ang babasahin ko,.but later on, i just found myself reading everything as in!..hehe sunod sunod pa nga yata..from her wedding diaries, pregnancy and birth story of her baby boy..after reading her entries,.i was like 'nakakainspire naman!..buti pa sya may happy ever after..'



Let me share a piece of cake from my most recent heart break..my relationship with my ex lasted for about 5 years..everything seems so perfect though its a big NO-NO on the part of our parents..in short, hindi kami legal both side pero naka survive kami ng ganon katagal..bilib ka?..wag uyy..magaling lang kaming mag deny..😉😉.. Im such a spoiled baby,.ung tipong kahit hindi ko hingin,kapag naramdaman nyang gusto ko,.ibibigay nya agad agad!.i still remember telling my ex,.'kung sino ung unang taong magbibigay sakin ng singsing sya na ung pakakasalan ko' ..so,when our first anniversary came,my ex gave me a ring..hehe..teka,para d awkward,.bigyan natin 'sya' ng code name..since i am listening to Forevermore by David Archuleta now,lets call my ex by the code name, 'David'.


David made me his world..he never let (ano?english pa?ako nga hindi ko na maintindihan ang mga sinasabi ko kaka-english!) so ito..alam mo ung pakiramdam na ikaw ung mundo nya?.na gagawin nya ang lahat para mapasaya ka?.ung magpaparamdam sayo na sobrang mahal ka nya?.ung kahit magkasama kayo kanina nami-miss ka na nya ngayon kahit katext mu sya?..ung iiyak sa harap ng maraming tao kahit magmukha syang tanga?.. lahat yan, naramdaman ko..na-experience ko..kay David..


David was madly,deeply inlove with yours truly..hehe..(syempre alam ko yon!.ramdam ko eh!.) each day with David is full of unexplainable happiness. I always find myself falling inlove all over again everyday. Bakit hindi?.. Hindi naman araw araw may David na biglang dadating sa buhay ko at mamahalin ako ng todo todo..but i guess, real life is not always like the fairytales we used to watch on Disney Channel..not all love stories have their happily ever after..


And...so much for the 'piece of cake' in my past..really,i find it hard to remember the things about how David and I started..hehe..Guilty as charge, im still in the process of moving on and daaaaannng!!.it is really a hard process.. 5 years!. i spend 5 years of my life loving David..but he left and his last words to me were 'AYOKO NA>>PAGOD NAKO'. Yan CAPS para intense! gaya ng naramdaman kong sakit nung iniwan nya ko..super intense!.



pS: while im reading the blogs of ms.Niki lately,.David suddenly crossed my mind and as if on que,i checked my cellphone just to see a text message saying.. 'pau pano mag print ng damet sa screen?' and the sender is David.